It's possible to be positive with a negative

(eeks! My digital pregnancy test!)

How confusing was that for a title?

But it's true, it is possible to be positive with a negative... a negative pregnancy test that is. Andy and I tried to get pregnant for one month (only one) and somehow it worked! Because we were trying, I was overly excited to take a pregnancy test at the soonest possible date that I could. So I marched my butt down to Rite Aide and bought the earliest response pregnancy test available. The box said, "now test 5 days sooner". I believed them, but it was a scam.

I held my pee all night and used 'first morning pee' as the box instructed. The flood gates opened and I tried to keep a consistent stream on the pregnancy stick. (Somehow that is always so difficult for me!) Two whole minutes of agony went by before I grabbed the test and hoped for the best. One line...only one line, no prego for me. There was slight disappointment, but I got over it since we were only on our first month of trying.

The 5 days leading up to my period went by and I didn't think twice about pregnancy. The test was negative and my fertile window wasn't for another two weeks, so my mind was preoccupied with everything else in life. Then, I missed the first day of my period. (It is usually right on time.) I started wondering once again if I could be pregnant. So, I took the second pregnancy test from the previous box of tests that I had bought. Once again, early morning pee, waiting in agony for two minutes, only one line. Still not pregnant. Silly me, I thought!

Four days go by. Now I had missed my period for 5 WHOLE days! For being someone with a very set monthly cycle, this was strange. I thought to myself, is there anything different, nausea or sore boobs? Nope, and kinda. I really didn't feel that different from normal. But once again, I trekked out to Rite Aide and bought TWO kinds of pregnancy tests. I was going to get to the bottom of this once and for all!

The first pregnancy test I took was with 'first morning pee' and it was another line test. I peed on the stick, waited in agony for two minutes, and saw...one line, oh wait, one solid line and one faint line. Could it be, was I seeing things?? Sure enough it was a faint line. So I decided to put it to the test yet again, with my second box of pregnancy tests. A fancier DIGITAL pregnancy test. Surely a digital test with batteries and words rather than lines would tell me the truth.

For a second test though, I would need more pee. I couldn't possibly wait until the next morning for 'first morning pee', so I drank a cup of coffee, ate a bowl of cereal, took all my vitamins, and checked facebook for 2 hours. After 2 hours I figured I could squeeze enough pee out for another test. So once again (for the 4th time), I peed on stick, waited in agony, and looked at the digital test. The moment of truth. PREGNANT, it said.

So yup, it is possible to be positive with a negative.

Pregnant!!

Woo, so here I am 4 weeks and 6 days pregnant! This will be the first thing that I write about my pregnancy...other than conceiving. I want to be sure to write everything down, I don't want to forget this experience.

When I was a little girl I desperately wanted to have my own babies, then as a teenager I went through a phase where I "hated kids", but secretly in the back of my mind I was still interesting in having a baby of my own. Once I got married I figured it could happen anytime. Then I settled into marriage and started to enjoy the independence that Andy and I had being a couple with no children. It was really nice and we've definitely taken advantage of 5 years of marriage with no kids. We've traveled, moved (a lot!) took spontaneous trips, rode Andy's motorcycle all over Washington DC, dined in fancy restaurants, bought a fixer-upper house and renovated the whole thing ourselves, stayed up late drinking and dancing, frolicked outside in the nude far more times than I even care to mention, gambled in casinos, rode in the back of trucks, lived on the east coast and the west coast, bungee jumped in South Africa, sky dived for my 30th birthday...and the adventures go on. Married life without kids has been awesome! But, life is ever evolving.

So here I am at the very beginning of pregnancy. I am experiencing this all for the first time and it is both wonderful and scary. Andy and I tried for one month (one month!!), and here we are pregnant already! I keep thinking my period will come, but instead of 'aunt flo' I've got bloating, cramps, and boobs oh so sore that wearing a bra is almost unbearable. Also, my hips hurt, can that be possible? There is a never ending ache that comes from my lower back and settles into my hips. Did I mention the insomnia, when will I sleep again? I figured at least I would get great sleep until the baby comes, but my body apparently thinks differently.

Growing a child is truly an amazing thing. Despite feeling uncomfortable already, I am constantly in awe of what my body is doing. Here's to the next 8 months and a crazy life changing experience!